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I'm a Christian Linux geek man person. Sometimes I have something to say.

New life begins, old ends

This weekend I more or less completed my move to Theresa’s place. I’ve been living in her basement since Saturday night. It’s a little disorienting because I’m in someone else’s house and have no real place of my own. The basement is pretty much my “room” for now, and I have my bed there. I’ve also got the office set up with a desk and my computers, so I’m starting to feel at home.

Moved the final aquarium last night (I’m down to 2 now). It was quite an ordeal because a 40 gallon tank with gravel, plants and some remaining water is big and heavy. I’m glad it’s done. I had one casualty. It was a bristlenose plecostomas, which has been with me pretty much from the beginning of my fishkeeping experiences. There was another aggressive, territorial pleco in the holding tank, which attacked it. A couple wounds plus the stress of the move was too much.

It’s really great being in my new home. Theresa is great, and I’m so thankful to have a partner through all this.

There is just too much that was bad about my old life. Too many bad memories and problems. This is just symbolic of the changes God has been making in my life the past few years. I used to think I’d cheated the system because I had lived life my own way for so long, and now I’m enjoying the benefits of the Christian life just like someone who has been faithful their whole life. It’s not true, though. There are definitely long lasting effects and scars from that way of life that I’m still healing from. Things don’t change over night. I’m sure God could change me overnight if he felt like it, but it’s the experience of working through the change that makes us better people. I also think it’s his nature to change us through experiences and other people rather than by just waving some holy magic wand. Real life is more complicated than Harry Potter.

Galatians 4:8-11

I’m studying Galatians right now and trying to journal a bit on what I’m reading. My eventual goal is to compile all this stuff and post it or something. What I read today especially impacts where I am right now, so I thought I’d put it up. See what you think.

Galatians 4:8-11 Paul again addresses his prime concern: that the faithful in the Galatian church were turning back to their old ways and falling away from his teaching. There must have been strong pressure to go back and give up this new way of life. Paul points out that the things they worshiped before were weak and powerless, and now they have known the power of the true God. How can they now wish to turn back?

I guess it’s easy for me to sympathize with their confusion. It’s easy to long for the old way even though the old way is bad. Giving up old habits to live the life of a Christian certainly isn’t easy. The things I put my trust in before, and the things I looked to for comfort may have been worthless and destructive, but they worked well enough. Drinking and drugs and sex got me through, and brought me what I needed at the moment. When you’re in pain or under pressure or just looking for a way out, it’s hard to remember how destructive the old lifestyle was. It’s a lot easier to remember how good those things felt. It’s hard in the moment to remember the despair that lifestyle brings when all you want is relief right now.

So I can see why the Galatians were so tempted and so ready to turn back. Sometimes it gets to the point where it seems like too much work to change. The old way worked and I can trust it. It’s predictable. God promises change and lasting satisfaction. He promises to make old things new, and complete the good work he has begun in us. He promises to never leave nor forsake us. I guess it just comes down to one question: do we really trust him to keep all those promises?